What’s happening to me?

This happened in my last year of high school. Exam year. Seems like there were a lot of things to keep my mind off of sports and video games–the questions are were getting harder each year. I’m the only male from a group of five siblings (the fourth), and while some people wouldn’t bother, it’s easy to understand that I need a brother to wrestle or get in a fight with to settle things. Inevitably, everything has to be voted if there were to be any sort of conflicting decisions.

I’m pretty sure should the people concerned were to come across this post of mine, instant recognition and some action might follow… but I don’t think they’d be looking for any of these…

Being the only boy, I was taught decency and respect for my sisters…like never yelling at them, or never disobey them. It was frustrating to be on the receiving end of orders yet I kept things to myself and resented everything before I forget about it a day later.

As with any boy who lives among a lot of sisters, I had some exposure to some erotic sights of my sisters. I never knew anything about sex or how grown-ups make babies; but when I was 11 I felt a certain twitch when I saw a sexy image of a female and in the evenings when I was alone in my room I would take of my clothes and just stare at these women wearing only their bras and panties–I had no access to porn–and imagine them with their clothes off. Instinctively I would lie on my bed and press the pillow against my crotch, which became more frustrating, and I didn’t knew why but I rubbed my penis on the pictures of the lovely women. It was only later that year when I learned to masturbate but it’s a whole lot different from the way other guys normally do it; I kept it in a flaccid state and placed it between my thighs and let it slide out before putting it in again. I hear about men ejaculating before from friends and figured out that the fluid that came out was semen.

My eldest sister is more than 7 years older than me. I’ll start calling my sisters A to D according to seniority–I’m a bit fucked up to assign them names less I accidentally write their real names somewhere. When I was twelve, she came out of the bathroom only wearing a shirt, and I could clearly see her shaved pussy.