Tera’s Awakening; No Going Back

My name is David Nicholas and my wife is Tera. Tera and I were high school sweethearts and as both of us realized right away that we were true soul mates we married right out of high school. To my surprise she was a virgin when we married. She had always told me she was but I thought she just said that because she was afraid it would spoil what we had together for me to know the truth. She insisted we not have sex until after we married and because I loved her I agreed. She was a quick study in the ways of lovemaking and couldn’t get enough of my dick once she cum with it inside her. Because we were married she refused to take birth control or use any kind of prevention. Naturally she got pregnant right away and seemed happy to put off college until after the baby was born. Once the baby came we found that it would be impossible for us to financially pay for both our educations and child care so she worked and helped pay for my college so we could have something in life. We had two more kids pretty quick and before long she was a stay at home mom while I worked to support us.

I had found a good engineering job right out of college and we had a decent life. It was the typical American life, lived in the suburbs, kids went to good schools, played sports and Tera was a typical soccer mom. Then one day we looked up and our last kid was graduating college and leaving for a job in another city. We had become “Empty Nesters” at 43! Being in excellent health and happy, I thought, this is our time to enjoy life! I had always been extremely happy with our sex life and thought Tera was also up until one fateful day that made me realize that might not be true in her case. I realized that the fire in my own libido had waned somewhat but I didn’t suspect there was anything wrong

Then one day while she was out, at a neighbors having lunch, I remembered I had promised to install some shelves in her closet for her. I entered the walk-in closet to try and get a handle on what would be required to accomplish the job. While inspecting what I would need I knocked a box off an existing shelf accidentally. What spilled out would cause me a little concern. I had happened to come across some magazines and several different kinds of black cock dildos. I glanced at the magazines and they were all of big cocked black men fucking white women. I was shocked, they had to be my wife’s no one else lived at home anymore and it was her closet. I put them back and tried to make it look undisturbed. I wondered what else there was about my wife I didn’t know. I saw her laptop on her dresser and walked over and tapped the space bar and the display came to life and I looked at recent web sites she had visited and found that she was reading sexy stories of white wives with black men and visiting many sites of the same theme.

I left everything as I found it and went and sat on the couch and pondered what was going on with my wife. I thought our sex life was ok to have been married for 24 yrs or so but now I wondered. I decided not to say anything trusting that sooner or later she would share what she was doing with me. We had never had secrets sexually to my knowledge and it disturbed me greatly that she hadn’t confided in me yet about the need she felt to have those things in her possession.

That night when we made love I couldn’t help but notice every small thing about our sex. She didn’t feel as tight as when we married but she felt about the same as since she had the last baby all those years ago, admittedly I didn’t fill her as I’d like to have. For the first time I also noticed that when she orgasmed she pressed into me, grinding into me like she needed more and I had no more to give. I sensed that she needed more to be truly satisfied. Had I been a selfish lover and not picked up on any of this I wondered. I had become complacent and took her for granted, never realizing that just because she didn’t say anything didn’t mean there wasn’t a problem. Tera would never tell me I wasn’t satisfying her, she just wouldn’t do that to me I realized now.

A few nights later after having sex I tried to open a line of communication with her by asking, “Honey, do you ever feel like you may have missed out on sexual experiences by marrying as a virgin”, I asked?

“Why would you ask that Dave, do you feel like that”, she replied?

“Sometimes I do, you know, when guys start talking about everything they did before they married and some of the guys that are single start talking about all their experiences with different women I wonder what both of us may have missed by marrying so young. One of the guys at the office was talking about a black women he was dating and how different she seemed to think about sex than white women and it got me thinking of how many different things we hadn’t experienced. Hell I bet our kids have more varied experiences than we do!”, I explained.

“Yeah I know what that’s like. I won’t mention any names but there are some ladies here in the neighborhood that were real sluts to hear their experiences. I’ve heard so many stories of their horse cocked boyfriends when they were in college that I want to scream every time one brings the subject up. Was college really like that Dave? They make it seem everybody was fucking everybody, black , white, red, every race under the sun was having a big orgy.”, she asked me?

“Not in my life, but I was married with kids in college and not attending drunken frat parties. I do wonder what it would be like to be with a black woman sometimes, you know, what their skin feels like, how they smell, if they are any different than you are. Do you ever wonder about things like that”, I asked her seriously?

“I guess so, it would be a normal thing for someone that hasn’t had those experiences to wonder about them. Sometimes I wonder what a really huge cock would feel like. I’ve heard so much about them from every wife in the neighborhood and then in the next breath they say how small their husbands are and I have to wonder if big cocks are so great, why did they marry guys with little ones”, she said laughing.

Then she rolled over and went to sleep as I lay there remembering her words as she said she wondered what a really big cock would feel like. I love my wife, she gave me her virginity, she gave up her career to be my wife and raised our children and now I was sure she felt unfulfilled as a woman. I couldn’t get the memory of the magazines, the story’s and web sites and the black dildos out of my mind.

I began visiting web sites like those she visited every time I was alone and pictured my beautiful wife in the scenarios I found there. Then one day I ran across a site that was called a cuckold site. There were many movies of husbands watching their white wives be taken by huge dicked black guys and for some reason when I thought of doing that with Tera my dick stiffened until it felt the skin on my glans was going to rip. I began forming visions in my mind of Tera fucking herself with those big black dildo’s and the next day I went out and bought a miniature wireless camera and hid it in our bedroom and installed remote software on my home laptop that would make the video available from the internet with the right url and password.

I began monitoring the camera from work and sure enough a few days later I watched as she walked around nude in the bedroom and retrieved the magazines and the black cocks and lay there gazing at the pages for a few minutes and then began rubbing her clit slowly almost idly. I could see her breathing becoming deeper, chest rising and falling rapidly and then she reached in the box and brought out the largest black cock she had and began sucking it, licking it and getting it wet and then placed it at her pussy and began pressing it into her forcibly. Everything had been quiet until then but as the dick entered her I heard her loud moan and watched as her hips began slowly undulating, hunching, her eyes closed and she began fucking herself slowly, deeply, forcing it in her until her fingers were pressing against its base as her palm heel rubbed her clit and her moans hardened me with the passion and desperate need expressed by them. Her hips hunched sensually as she felt the dick with her pussy, fucking it as she obviously was thinking of one of the men in the magazine fucking her, forcing his black dick into her, giving her what she needs.

Seeing the intensity of her orgasms as she fucked herself, repeatedly picking the magazine up and staring intently at its pages before experiencing another back arching, moaning orgasm, told me of her enjoyment at thinking of being fucked by black men, huge cocked black men! Then she arose and picked up her laptop and sat cross legged on the bed with her back to me and began watching movies like the one I had been watching, cuckold and hotwife movies where the husband watched and filmed their wives finding heaven with huge cocked black men. I watched as my wife re-inserted her black cock in her pussy and knelt and leaned back onto it, pressing it in her pussy as she rocked forward and backwards into it. She cum a few times like that as she watched white men holding their wives hands while the woman was being hammered deeply by a black man. It seemed to really excite her when she would see a black guy filling a white wife’s pussy with his virile cum, groaning and driving deep inside her as the woman kissed her husband, their kiss interrupted by her moans and shrieks as she felt her black lovers’ hot sperm jetting inside her.

She did this for hours as I watched, hearing her cries of fuck me, fuck that black dick in my married white pussy, let Dave see you fill me with your hot black sperm…aiiieeeee. She seemed to love thinking of me watching her especially when she imagined a black man cumming in her pussy while another cum in her mouth. She even sucked one of the other dildos as she role played that act. I actually cum in my underwear when I saw her press a dildo up her ass and the big one in her pussy and began saying, as if I were watching her, fuck me, cum in my ass and pussy while my husband watches you drain your black balls in me, show him what a slut I am for your nigger dicks. If only she knew that I was watching as she fucked both her holes as she cum fiercely under the spell of her imaginings.

I stopped on the way home and bought an even larger black cock dildo that had a suction cup base on it and a powerful vibrator molded in it with a wireless remote control and a wireless remote Venus clit vibe.

That night after dinner I began kissing her and undressing her in the dining room. When I had her laying across the table I smiled at her and said, “You remember the other night you said you sometimes wondered what a huge dick would feel like. Well I bought you a present today and reached under the table and pulled the dildo and a bottle of lube up where she could see it.

“Oh my god Dave that thing is huge and black. Why a black one”, she asks?

“It just kinda turned me on thinking of you with a huge black dick stuck in your pussy, why, would you prefer a white one”, I asked innocently?

“No, the black is ok I guess. Does it really turn you on thinking of me having a black dick in my pussy, that’s pretty kinky Dave. I would think it might disgust you thinking about a white woman with a black guy, especially when the white woman is your wife”, she said.

I knew she was feeling me out so I said, “Well, when I think of some other woman fucking a black guy I think it’s hot, it just seems erotic as hell, you know the color contrast and the tabooness of it and everything. But to be honest the only way it would turn me on to see you fuck a black guy would be if I knew you really wanted it and it was something you really needed to be happy. Just knowing you want a black man fucking you is a real turn on for me for some reason. I guess I’d go along with just about anything if you needed it to feel happy or satisfied. I don’t see how I could say I love you and mean it if I was to withhold something you really needed to make or keep you happy. So tell me, do you need this big black dick to be happy tonight”, I teased her. I could see how our talking had her aroused as she heard me say I could watch her fuck a black man if she really needed it.

“HMMM she moaned, bring that black cock here and then sit in that chair and I’ll let you figure out if I need it.” I stuck the dildo to the table top and poured some lube on it as she smiled and said, “Oh you’re gonna lube his dick up so he can fuck me, now that’s hot baby. Stroke it for me and get it good and hard so I can fuck it and show you how bad I need his black cock cumming in me Dave. It turns me on seeing you touching his dick baby. Hold his big cock while I put it in my pussy”, she says as she rises and straddles the huge dildo while placing her pussy at its fat tip. “Oh god Dave his dick is so much bigger than yours baby, ohhhhhhhdamn he’s so fat, so good. Go sit down baby and watch me fuck his black dick”, she moans as she pumps her pussy up and down its fat shaft as her arousement heightens.

I undress and sit in the chair as Tera fucks the huge dick up inside her. My dick is stiffening as I say, “Damn baby, doesn’t his big dick hurt your pussy. He’s so big, do you really like something that big fucking your pussy? You must really need that black dick in you to be pressing that big thing up inside you like you are. I’m not going to be able to feel your pussy when he’s through with you honey!”

“Oh fuck Dave it’s so good, so deep in me, he’s stretching your pussy baby, oh god I love him so much Dave, you’ve never made me feel like this baby. I want to fuck his big dick everyday honey…oh god he’s makin me cum…I’m cumming on his black dick baby…..oh god……. watch me baby………sooo fuckin big… watch him fuck me honey……Oh shit I’m cumming so good……… never cum with you like this…oh god he’s hurting my pussy so good….so deep…baby. Fuck me, cum in me, tell him to cum in me honey, please I need to feel it cum so bad”

My dick is streaming precum and I know I can’t hold it much longer as I watch her fuck her pussy down on the dildo knowing in her mind she’s really fucking some big black cock. “Cum in her, please cum in my wife’s pussy, make her pregnant. She needs it so badly, give her what she needs, shoot your black babies up in her womb and fuck it in her hard, drive your sperm into her womb, she needs it so bad.” She begins screaming and fucking her pussy down on the dick until her face is etched with an intense pained pleasure, she is out of control, unable to stop fucking her pussy onto it hurtfully and also unable to stop cumming as she stares at me beating off as I watch her. When I cum she slams her pussy down on the dick and grinds into it fitfully and I ask her, “Is he cumming in you baby, does it feel good”, and then I switch the vibrator on high and she begins bucking, hunching, screaming, her head flailing and she keeps ramming her pussy into the dick until almost all of it is impaling her and her cries become high pitched wailing sounds. Her body’s movements are uncontrolled, just responses to the sensations of her stretched vibrating pussy until she literally falls forward exhausted from the intensity of her ongoing orgasm, her body still twitching and jerking as I turn the vibe off.

“You really do like black dick don’t you honey”, I asked with a big grin on my face.

“Could you really do that Dave, really watch me lose it like that fucking a black guys dick knowing he was gonna fill me with his hot ball cum, while you jack off? ”

“The question really is do YOU want me to watch you fuck a big dicked black guy while I jack off Tera? Is it something you need to be truly happy, I want you happy baby, I love you. I want you to think before you answer this question honey and please answer it truthfully. Are you wanting to replace that dildo with a real black dick Tera?” There it was, out in the open!

Tera crawled off the table and almost fell her legs were so weak. “Wait here”, she said. She came back in a few minutes with the magazines in her hand and lay them on the table and with tears in her eyes said, “I love you Dave but I really need to do everything in these magazines honey. I don’t want to feel like this but I can’t help it Dave. I’ve tried to throw those away a hundred times but every time I pick them up I begin looking at them and I want to feel what those women are feeling so badly I just wind up masturbating while looking at them. Do I need to do that to be truly happy honey, I don’t know. What I do know, and it eats me up every day baby knowing it, is that I really WANT to do it. Look at the pictures in them honey and you’ll see what your wife is craving, you’ll realize what a slut I want to be. Then if you don’t want to be married to me anymore I’ll understand but I want you to know I have never cheated on you Dave, no one else has ever touched me, not one time”, she said, resigned to her fate.

I look at every page of them and when I came to the page where 5 black guys were gangbanging a white woman, I paused and asked her, “How much does the thought of this turn you on honey”, I asked as I showed her the pictures. My dick was pulsing with my own excitement at thinking of her doing that and knowing her answer was going to be that it turned her on a lot.

She looked like she knew her answer was going to be the end of our marriage but she replied honestly, “A lot Dave, I cum almost every time I see it. I’d love to just lay and have a bunch of black guys just take turns fucking the shit out of me and filling me with their cum. I wish I didn’t want all that but I do and I’m not going to lie to you and I won’t cheat on you even if you can’t understand it. I guess I’m really a slut deep inside me Dave.”

“The good thing is that I do understand honey. The bad thing, I guess it’s bad by society’s view, is that I get really hard thinking of watching you do all these things. Can you do them and still love me Tera. I mean how will you feel with a huge black cock throbbing in your pussy, feeling him spurting his hot cum deeper inside you than it’s humanly possible for me to. Won’t it make you love him, love what he is giving you as you realize I can never make you feel the same”, I asked seriously?

“Can you watch me do all that knowing that I’d be loving having a black guy in my pussy maybe many black guys fucking me and all of them cumming in me and on me and still love me Dave, still want me as your wife?”

“Of course I could, I could never stop loving you Tera. How could I if I wanted it too and I knew it was just sex to you, but can you keep it just sex? I understand why you would want to experience everything that you do because it turns me on as much as it does you when I think of watching you experiencing it. I just wish you had told me when you first became aware of your desires and needs. If you had we could have explored your need to cum on a bunch of hard black dicks together. I believe I can live with anything you wish to do sexually unless you cheat to do it, and you obviously don’t want to cheat or we wouldn’t be having this conversation. If this is something you really wish to do and we will share the experience, I guess the only question is do you pick the guys or me or both of us and when do we start”, I say smiling at her. I just want you to know that I never want you to do anything without me there, this has to be an us thing not a you thing.

“I couldn’t do anything without you there Dave, I wouldn’t, I need us to do this together so I can know I’m not losing your love. I love you Dave and I really want you to pick them as long as you promise to pick the longest, fattest, blackest dicks you can find for my pussy. Then she sits there staring at me as she realizes everything I have just said makes it possible for her to live her fantasies. You’re really going to help me do this aren’t you? You know I’m going to love having them fuck me don’t you. I can almost cum just thinking of my pussy being stretched and full like I’m sure it will be. Doesn’t it bother you at all that your wife wants to feel black men cumming in her pussy, ass and yes even my mouth? You are aware, that your 7 inch cock is the only cock to ever be in me. How is it going to make you feel to see another man, especially a black man making me cum better than I possibly ever have with you? Dave I know I am going to love it, I mean really love their black dicks in me and I’m equally sure I will be screaming and cumming my ass off if their dicks hurt and fill me like I imagine they will. I just have to know that you can handle seeing that. You know you’ll never be able to make me feel like they can with their larger cocks. Even worse is the fact that I believe it’s because they’re black that really gets me so excited and how can you compete with that honey, it just scares me knowing how excited I get when I think of you watching black men fuck me..”, she says.

“Are you going to swallow their cum and let them take you up the ass”, I ask?

“You’re trying to get me hot aren’t you, yes I want all my holes filled with cum at the same time. Did you like watching me fuck that big dick, and by the way that was mean turning that vibe on like that when you knew I was already going crazy. Is it a remote?”

“Yeah you liked that didn’t you? You liked the way that dick filled you, stretched your pussy didn’t you honey. Is that what you crave honey to have your pussy stretched till it hurts”, I teased her?

“Hmmm I’d love to find a real dick like it, god it’s so fat it just drove me nuts. Yes, baby, I want to feel my pussy stretched till it hurts, feel his cock throbbing inside me. I love thinking of being that full and then feeling his cum scald me deeply…mmmmmmm I did like this dildo a lot, and you didn’t help by pretending you were really watching me get fucked, damn that was so intense. I bet I completely lose it when I fuck a real black guy with you seeing me. Are you really sure you want me to do this, damn I know I’m gonna cum like I have never cum in my life. Hell I can almost cum talking to you about it I’ve craved it so long”.

“We need to sit down and talk Tera. Now that the kids are all gone we can do just about anything we wish sexually as long as we can both live with it and we keep it hidden from people that know us. This is all taking me kind of sudden and I really think we need to be open and honest about our needs and desires and decide just what we want to do going forward. I mean, hell I never dreamed you needed more sexually, and not in my wildest dreams could anyone have convinced me my wife wanted to feel black cocks fucking her. I have to admit that even saying it right now causes my dick to begin hardening and I feel myself becoming aroused by the vision of it, how crazy is that?”

“I guess hearing all the things the other wives kept saying really got me wondering if big cocks really felt that different than smaller ones. I got to looking at big cock sites and watching the amateur homemade videos that were free on them and the women in them seemed to be driven crazy by what they were feeling. Never having seen another cock but yours I was really turned on by what I watched. My god Dave there were cocks 13 inches long and fat as wine bottles. I began masturbating ever day watching the videos. But even then I wasn’t really thinking seriously about actually fucking anybody, it was just fantasy, something to liven up my sex life, which you benefitted from indirectly.”

“Why didn’t you tell me you needed more honey”, I asked her?

“It’s not something a woman can just do Dave. How do you tell someone you love you need to feel a bigger cock than he has knowing he can’t provide it. I could never hurt you that way Dave. I could never take the chance it would destroy our relationship if not our marriage. Besides it really wasn’t that big a deal to me until…….Oh god I’m getting wet just remembering it again……I hate it that I can’t control the way I respond to my thoughts Dave. Anyway, one day I was going to run to the store and pick up a few things for dinner and the truck was parked behind my car so I just drove it.