Straight boy turned for 1st time

Ever since I was a boy I used fantasise about all sorts of taboo sex… one being seduced by an older man. Over the years I masturbated all the time about it but nothing ever happened in real life. With the advances of technology, my fantasies brought me to the internet where I’d look at porn. I enjoyed watching blowjob pics, but not to look at the girl – to look at the cock and wish it was me sucking it.

I lead a normal straight life, have a good job and a great girlfriend. I’m happy and ambitious but this urge to be with a man just keeps creeping in. I try to keep my mind from thinking about it but I seem to keep coming back over and over. I’m now 26 and use the internet to satisfy my urges… using chatrooms and gay sites. Each time I need a little more to satisfy me. I met this guy – a gay man aged 50… told him my urges and now I chat online regularly with him… he understands my position and knows how to satisfy me online. First it began with just text chats… then camming (but not showing my face)… then phone sex… texting… showed him my face… long sessions. I continued the contact for a year and a half, going further and further each time. I always wondered that if under the right circumstances came about, would I give in and go through with it in real life. I couldn’t believe how much I had done with this man – he knew me intimately and was able to seduce me online very easily.

I let him know what turned me on, how my mind was when it came to the conflict of my normal life and my secret fantasy. He learned how to get my urges to come up to the surface and kept talking me into it deeper and deeper all the time. I wanted to let him push me further and further all the time… always teasing my mind with the possibility of it happening for real life. Online I’d let him take the lead and seduce me… telling me that I was his boy… getting me to admit that I was… that he was my daddy and I needed him more and more. This turned me on so much… letting go more and more and letting him take control of me. I fantasised so much about meeting him… in a hotel room, being slowly seduced and sucking his cock. Completely under his spell and then him fucking my virgin ass. I’d cum for him on cam so many times. He really liked that this hot 26 year old guy, muscled and lean with a great 7″ cut cock was so turned on by him. I’m 5ft 9in, good looking, lean, blue eyes. I always knew I was attractive and did very well with the girls. He was 50, taller – 5ft 11in, slim, silver hair, had a fat 7″ thick uncut cock.

When I was out and had a few drinks I’d get so horny and knew at times that if the opportunity was there I’d really go through with it. All the time when we were online we’d stack the odds in our favour so opportunity was there all the time – I even gave him my mobile number so he could text me anytime. I live in London but he lives in another city but would travel to London on work quite a bit. We used to go over what would happen if we met in great detail. As I was very nervous and apprehensive, I knew it would have to be very subtly done or I’d just run. We practiced this over and over online till he knew exactly what to do and say to get me comfortable and have me go all the way. I have to admit that although when I got really horny I’d want it really badly, in the back of my mind I didn’t think it would ever happen in real life. But creating such a strong opportunity to be there tempting me all the time was exciting.

I never thought I was gay, I don’t ever ‘fancy’ guys in that way – I wouldn’t ever have to urge to date a guy. The urge is purely a sexual one. However, with this man I had exposed so much of my inner urges that it was like we had this bubble together, I felt vounreable and liked him to take control of me. It became such a warm feeling inside and he’d get me to tell him that I was his gay boy who loved his daddy.