str8 boy gives in to gay man…

I’ve always have a very active imagination when it comes to sex… even as a young boy from the age of 8 I’d fantasize about all sorts of things… group sex, science fiction, gay, beastality, incest, etc. Of course it was all just fantasy. As I got older the fantasies were more realistic but would still be taboo to get me turned on. It became mainly fantasies about my cousin as I knew she was secretly very horny. I also fantasised about having another man dominate a girl with me and also about being seduced by an older man.

It was the last fantasy that was easiest to ‘explore’ using the internet. For the last six or seven years with the advance of technology it has brought my fantasies to another lever. Being able to stay anonymous but interact online has brought a whole new lease of life to my fantasies…. at first I used to look at porn, then look at profiles on dating sites, then joining free sites – gay sites; then emailing… online chatting using messenger. Keeps getting easier and more till now I cam 2 cam, phone and exchange cock pics with gay men. It fuels my fantasy but I seem to need more and more all the time. I remember seeing the first porn pics so many years ago and getting so turned on… now watch porn videos is boring.

I’m a very good looking guy, do well with girls, I’m very fit with a lean muscled body and quite successful in my career. Lead a happy straight life. Of course this urge and fantasy keeps creeping in… might resist it for a few weeks – delete all my accounts, etc. but then I’d be back again when I get really horny. The thought of finally being seduced… giving in completely… unable to resist… experiencing cock for real… sucking it… feeling it in my hand… on my back… rubbing against my hard cock…. entering me… all this I just crave.

I’ve got chatting to plenty of men, camming, etc. but few of them really fitted the bill. Few of them really understand or have the same (opposite) urge as I do. They don’t really understand the mental part, how badly I need a man to seduce me… getting inside my head and getting me to let go… getting me to admit it bit by bit… really getting of on controlling me and talking me through it all the time. I did find one man that really seemed to get me going. This man was about 50 – he was gay and civilised, really liked to seduce me and was so good at it. Each time we were online we’d go further and further… he was the first man that I had phone sex with… and showed my face on cam… I’d go further and further with him. All was going very well – had the most pleasurable time ever with him online.

Then I found it harder to contact him.. he became less responsive… and then I found out he was dating a guy. We still had the rare online fantasy but it became less and less – no response to my emails, texts, etc. he was very happy in his relationship and obviously didn’t want to spoil it. It was quite frustrating as the one guy I really thought would be able to get me to give in and do it for real was now no longer interested. I tried to get things going with many other guys, but none of them could quite get me going the same way he did. It was strange… I always thought that I’d be the one hanging back with a gay man coming forward, now I was the one wanting it more than him! What this did was that anytime he was online and willing to have a little online fantasy, I would completely let go and immediately get naked on cam, be on the phone, show him my face and do anything for him. Unfortunately he kept refraining more and more till I only got the odd reply ever couple of months. I kept trying, sometimes I’d try to refrain for a while thinking he might come forward, but he didn’t and invariably I’d get too horny and contact him again.

Time went on, I kept checking to see when he’d be online. Months later I noticed he was online more often, even managed to get some response. Then one Saturday I was online – I had the weekend off and my flat mate was away. Suddenly realizing I was on my own for the whole evening I got horny thinking I could have a good online cam2cam session. I was hoping I’d find him online but to no avail. I went to some gay chat sites and some porn sites and had some fun – I kept checking to see if he was online. I was getting so horny – I normally don’t have a whole evening to indulge so I was getting extra horny! At this stage I was in my room, naked on my bed, cam setup and hard as a rock! At 10pm I checked and he was online! I got very excited and just prayed that he’d contact me. He was online for a while before I got a response but then he messaged me to say hi.

I was so excited… still hoping that he’d have time for a session. We got chatting and he was horny. We got chatting, he was telling me how busy he was with work. I asked him about his boyfriend, he said things were going well, then he told me that he was away for the weekend.