Sara’s Awakening Part 3

Back to Sara’s point of view in this part. She’s still remembering the past few weeks so this is still her memories.

She finally crawled out of bed at 11 o’clock and made her way to the kitchen for some breakfast. As she made her toast she thought about the night before. The reaction her body had when she felt her dad’s body against her’s. The way she felt when she kissed him. What was wrong with her? It was just a kiss on the cheek after all. Why had her body reacted in that way and what in the world had she experienced last night when she had got back to bed? Was what she felt normal? Had anyone else ever experienced that earth shattering feeling before? So many questions flashed through her mind and she had no answers for them. As she ate her breakfast she tried to think of ways to find the answers she needed. She realized there was nobody she could ask about this.  She had no idea where her mom was. She hadn’t made any friends at school. The only person she could ask was daddy and even though the thought brought back the tingly feeling she knew she couldn’t do that. There seemed to be no way for her to get the answers she wanted so badly.

She went out to the living room and turned on the tv hoping it would offer up some kind of solution to her problem. They didn’t have many channels. Only a few local ones and some sports channels that her dad loved. She was about to give up on the whole idea all together when a commercial came on for some website that set up domain names. That’s when it hit her. The internet. “How could she be so stupid?” she thought.

She nearly ran to the den and hopped on the computer. She stared at the screen and tried to think what to look for first. She decided to type in “rubbing and fingering my vagina” first. Scrolling down she saw a page on yahoo answers that seemed like a good place to start. The girl asking the question had apparently tried putting her finger in too but hadn’t felt anything. She was about to click away (since she obviously felt something) when she started to read through the answers. The first person talked about rubbing herself on a pillow or a stuffed animal to “get off” as she put it. Others talked about rubbing their “clitoris” with their finger. What the hell were they talking about? She decided to look that word up next.

She found a page on Wikipedia that talked about it and after a little reading she figured out that this was the spot that she had rubbed last night. She spent nearly an hour reading about her clit, her pussy, and different ways other women used to get off. She felt so far behind. She’d never heard of most of the things she’d read about. Her parents had never sat her down and had any kind of talk with her about sex. Hell if it hadn’t been for tv she’d have never heard the word sex and wouldn’t have even known how babies were made. She felt so stupid as she looked at all of these things. She discovered that what she had felt last night was called an “orgasm” and it was brought on by “masturbation”. She found sites that talked about different ways to do it and found that they even made toys that would help.

She read about things like penetration which immediately made her think about her father. She felt her skin get hot at the thought and that now familiar tingle crawl its way up her legs to her pussy yet again. Even being as naive as she now knew she was she also knew that having these kind of feelings was looked at as being wrong. She decided to look and see if she was the only one out there that had ever felt this way before.