My spiralling dive into… bestiality

For some time i was kinda embarrassed with one of my deepest kinks. Which is… pretty dark in itself, but as a really imaginitive girl, it gets even darker in my thoughts. I always wanted to share it with people to relieve the vast amount of stress i have built up over the years fantasizing about it, but… unfortunately this is not the kind of kink that is easy to express and to reveal in front of your boyfriends or girlfriends. To this day I still havent got the courage to come up with it to any of my boyfriends, not in person, not even in text.

I just kept fantasizing about it, watching lots of videos i could never even imagine i would, let alone finding it deeply arousing.

And i mean arousied like nothing else could get me.

I thought about sharing my stories here and tell how i actually found about this kink of mine to… maybe relieve a bit of stress i feel, and share my thoughts so maybe… people would understand better the “why”s and “how”s.

This is how i found out that i am… actually deeply aroused and get soaking wet for bestiality.

It relates to an event that happened when i just crossed the line of 18. Like it happened just a few days after my 18th birthday.

I had a really fun boyfriend back then, who helped me a lot to discover some of my kinks and… kinda sent me down the road im still on to this day. I wasnt the kind of girl who could talk openly about sex, or anything related to it, at least not without getting embarrassed and my face turning bright pink or dark red in embarrassment. I could get really uncomfortable just by hearing other people talking about it, and when they did, it was me who did the blushing instead of them. He was the longest relationship i had still to this day, and it took me some time to get used to being relaxed around him and have sex for the first time. I guess it didnt really help either to have parents who… never really told me anything about sex themselves, being too conservative to have some decdent talks with me, even when… you know, that first time happens when a young girl shows the signs of… fertility.

Once i was brave enough though, i started to find out that there is nothing embarrassing about it, and having a boyfriend who never pushed me, or rushed me into anything was the best i could wish for. Ive became comfortable after some time to have sex regulary. Because dont get me wrong – i loved it. I really enjoyed the sensation like nothing else when i came the first time in my life, and … you wouldnt guess how young i was when that happened, and i dont even dare sharing it. It happened when i first heard my parents having sex, and even though i never knew how it was supposed to be done, and what was happening exactly, i felt turned on. So much that i had to rub my girly pussy in my bedroom with my head buried in my pillow. I loved it so much, i just got hooked on it. Sharing it with someone else was the first real hurdle for me, and once ive gotten through it, it was… kinda the years of my life i enjoyed the most, still to this day.

He was the forst guy i dressed up for, the first guy i did roleplaying with, the first guy who…