My First Experience with Josh Part 1

I had always considered myself straight until the beginning of my junior year of high school when I caught a glimpse of my friend Josh shirtless and fell in love. That opened my eyes. I began to look around and see a great number of guys who were quite attractive. I, like any teenage boy, got horny and would often masturbate thinking of some of them. But none of them even came close to Josh and that first image of him shirtless. He is about 6’ 3” with smooth, tight skin, beautiful round pecs, A flat stomach with a slight six pack when he flexed and he had a light golden tan I would die for. His face was clear with a square jaw, a nice big smile, green eyes that made me melt, and nice head of thick light brown hair. He seemed like the perfect guy for me. He was always friendly very smart and one of the best athletes at our school. Unfortunately his family was extremely conservative and I knew that there was know way that he could be gay.

This is what tormented me for the entire school year. I knew I loved him and not just a crush, I genuinely loved him, but I also knew it wasn’t likely to happen. Armed with my newfound love for Josh, I began to watch him a lot more closely over the next year. He was a popular guy and probably could have had any girl that he wanted, but he never dated and it didn’t seem like that was because of his family. He always seemed awkward around girls which I always found cute. It was as if he wasn’t comfortable with them. Now we went to a small private school so I got to see him a lot and we would hang out with a bunch of other people, but we weren’t that great of friends. I began to change that over that junior year. By the end of the school year we got to the point that we would go see movies or just chill just the two of us. We didn’t do that too often, but it wasn’t unusual by any means.

On a class trip at the end of the year I got my wish. We just went to the city for a night and a day to hang out as a class. I knew it would be a ton of fun because I loved my class and got along with just about everybody. When we got to the hotel that night we were getting into groups of four for our hotel rooms Josh, Kaden, James, and I were already talking to each other when they were passing out the keys so we just decided to room together.