My Amazing Mason 3

Weeks and weeks went by and I was doing so so good with my therapy and stuff. I got to hear from Mason a couple of times a week and I got to talk to mom a few times a week. It got to where I knew when Mason was going to call me and I got so so excited to hear from him. If he didn’t call me, he would be on a call or at his other job where he’s not allowed to have his phone with him and he worked a lot, and I mean a lot a lot. I only knew when he was working as a paramedic because when I called him while he was working he not only answered, but I could hear the walkie thing. He even came and saw me at the hospital when he wasn’t working which wasn’t all of the time which I hated because I loved him. Sometimes if he was working as a paramedic, I would see him even more depending on if he brought someone to my hospital or not. I was shocked when I saw him walk in and come right to me in uniform with his radio and everything one day. And what I loved more than anything else in this world, was that my doctors loved him, they told me that he was very, very therapeutic for me, so they actually asked him to try and stop by and see me more often. I still had my moments where I would be depressed and sad and they noticed that I would change after I saw Mason. I would be happy and excited and I wouldn’t be able to stop smiling and they noticed that. I missed him, I missed him all the time because I was still madly in love with him, that and because I was way more attracted to him physically than I ever was!

Hearing from him was like, the biggest highlight of my day but it wasn’t every day since he worked part time as a nurse in the emergency room of the hospital I went to first. I realized that I was actually happy again, I was feeling good about myself again, I didn’t feel worthless anymore because I had someone other than my mom and siblings that needed me, and the best part of that was that he was like, right there all the time. One day they told me that I had come a long long way, so they sent me to another therapist. I got to stay with my friends and stay in my room, but I was seeing a different therapist. I won’t lie, I was a little nervous because I heard that my next therapist was the one who said wether or not I got to go home, and I wanted to go home so I could start my life over with Mason. I did get to have a little break before I had to meet with the new therapist so it wasn’t all that bad. The best part is that if the therapist thought that I was well enough, then I only had one week left, one week, that means the three months or ninety days were almost up.

So I’m sitting in the common room hanging out with my friends when they started to ask me about Mason. They asked me why he was always just coming to see me and no one else. So I told them that he was my boyfriend I mean, he kinda wasn’t officially but he was going to be. They didn’t believe me, they started making fun of me and started saying that I was just saying that to impress them. They kept saying how they would “fuck” him, and honestly, I didn’t even know what that was. All I knew was that it had something to do with sex, yeah, I lived a very sheltered life, and sex ended up being the main subject of our conversation. They kept talking about doggy style, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, the cat, the water fall, hot seat, pole position, face off, the pretzel, spoon and a bunch of others. I had no idea what they were even talking about like, at all and I started to feel bad because of it.

“Can I ask you guys something without you making fun of me?” I asked.

“Yeah we can.” Roberta asked.

“What do you do with all of those positions?” I asked.

“You have sex.” Gina asked.

“No I’m serious, I wanna know.” I said.

“You’re so damn innocent that I think you’re lying when you say you’ve had sex.” Roberta said.

“I think you’re still a Virgin.” Gina said.

“Hello, I was married and got pregnant remember?” I asked while I laughed.

“So was your ex husband that bad? Was sex really that bad for you?” Denice asked.

“It was ok I guess.” I said.

“Just ok?” Roberta asked.

“Well, if I have to be honest it wasn’t all that good for me, he would just get on top of me and that’s all.” I said.

“Did he just stick it in you and fuck you for a few seconds and it was over?!” Denice asked.

“Actually yeah, that’s exactly how it was. I even had to use a lot of lube so it wouldn’t hurt, we went through like, three bottles a week and they were big bottles, I’ve never had sex in any of the ways you guys are talking about, I guess it was just missionary all the time.” I said.

“Oh you poor girl, are you serious?!” My friend Becca asked.

“I swear to god, that’s how it was all the time with him, but it got worse when he started to hit me.” I said.

“Oh my god, I am so so sorry.” Denice said.

“It is what it is, it’s all over and I’m divorced from that asshole. I seriously wanna know what you guys are talking about.” I said.

“Ok, well tell you, which one do you wanna know about first?” Denice asked.

“Um, doggy.” I said.

“Ok, so doggy is when you get on your hands and knees, and depending on how tall your man is, you may have to stick your ass up so he can get inside of you. So if you’re on the bed on your hands and knees, your boy toy Mason gets on his knees and he fucks you from behind. He holds your waist or whatever and just slides his dick in and out of you like that.” She said making me feel a little horny again.

“Wow, what’s the cowgirl?” I asked.

“That’s when you have Mason lay flat on his back and you get on top of him. And instead of laying down on him, you sit up and you take his cock and you sit on it and take him inside of you.” Roberta said.

“So like, I would be making love to him?” I asked.

“Yes you would, you’d have all of the control, plus he can look at you and touch you all over your body while you ride him” Gina said.

“Reverse cowgirl, is that like, the same thing?” I asked.

“Basically, the only difference is that you’re facing away from him. But you can lay back on him and let him fuck you.” Becca said making me get really horny because it gave me a really hot visual of me and Mason!

“What about the water fall, what’s that?” I asked.

“That’s where he sits on his bed and lays back so that his head and shoulders are on the floor, and you sit on his dick and fuck him while he’s like that.” Denice said.

“Oh, cool. What’s the Cat?” I asked.

“The cat is kinda like the missionary position only Masons body is farther up and to the side of your body. You guys won’t be all chest to chest like the missionary, his chest would be by your shoulder. That one is awesome because his body is in constant contact with your clit. Mason wouldn’t be fucking you, you two would basically be rocking together.” Gina said.

“Wow, ok, what about the pole?” I asked.

“That’s like the reverse cowgirl, only Mason would have only one of his legs bent, and you would have your legs around that one, basically his leg will be between yours, and when you’re fucking him you use his leg to hold onto him. Mason would probably like that too because he gets to see himself inside of you.” Denice said.

“That one sounds like fun, what about face off?” I asked.

“That one is perfect for love making, if you wanna make love to Mason, you’ll love this one. You have him sit on the bed or in a chair so that his feet are on the ground, then you get in his lap facing him and put your knees on both sides of his body. You wrap your arms around his back and you can play with his hair and stuff. You can look in his eyes and make out with him, and instead of bouncing up and down on him, all you do is press your legs together and then relax them.” Denice said.

“I wish I would have done all of that, they all sound really really hot and really fun.” I said.

“I feel so so sorry for you, my god. Well, maybe Mason will let you do stuff like that to him.” Roberta said.

“So have you ever had sex with your new boy toy?” Becca asked.

“No.” I said.

“Do you even know what you’re doing when it comes to pleasing a man?” Roberta asked.

“I wasn’t allowed to do anything at all when I was married, I never even got to have sex in any of those positions, so no.” I said.

“Have you ever given a man a blow job?” Becca asked.

“No I haven’t, I’ve always wanted to try it because all of the girls that I know that have done it said they like it.” I said.

“Do you even know what a blow job is?” Denice asked while they all laughed at me.

“Yes I know what a blow job is.” I said while I laughed.

“What is it then?” Becca asked.

“It’s when you suck the guys dick.” I said.

“And you’ve always wanted to try that?” Roberta asked.

“Yes I have, stop making fun of me.” I said while I laughed.

“Ok, so have you ever been eaten out?” Denice asked.

“No.” I said.

“So you’ve never given a guy a blowjob and you’ve never been eaten out, and you’ve never enjoyed sex?” Gina asked.

“No I haven’t.” I said.

“You poor poor girl, I’m so so sorry.” Becca said while she hugged me.

“So when you dated Mason a long time ago, you guys didn’t have sex?” Gina asked.

“No we didn’t I mean, we dated when I was fourteen but all we ever did was make out.” I said.

“I was going to say.” Gina said.

“And you haven’t had sex with him since you’ve been back?” Denice asked while Gina was talking.

“I mean, we just started going out again just before I got here so no.” I said.

“Hun, with a man like that you really need to know what you’re doing.” Roberta said.

“I don’t think it’ll bother him that I don’t know what I’m doing.” I said.

“Maybe so, but still. He’s got to be the sexiest most handsome man that we’ve ever seen and guys that look like him, like a girl with experience.” Gina said.

“Yeah I know, but I don’t have much. My husband made me lay still and not move when we had sex so I didn’t get to do anything that I wanted to do. I didn’t get to try anything I wanted to try like, giving him a blow job.” I said.

“What would happen if you tried to do something to him?” Becca asked.

“He’d hit me. He’d either punch me or slap me over and over again, and that’s after he stopped having sex with me, he would call me a whore and a slut and told me that I disgusted him.” I said.

“What a fucking asshole!” Denice said.

“Were you even allowed to touch his dick?” Roberta asked.

“Nope, he only let me look at it, if I tried to touch it I would get in trouble.” I said.

“So he wouldn’t let you touch his dick and you never sucked him off?” Denice asked.

“Nope.” I said.

“So what did he do if he wanted to have sex?” Gina asked.

“He would just tell me that it’s time and I would have to get naked and go lay on the bed and spread my legs.” I said.

“Then what?” Roberta asked.

“He made me squirt lube on myself and rub it in, then he’d stick it in and have sex with me for a minute or so until he came in me.” I said.

“That’s it?!” Denice asked.

“Yeah that’s it.” I said while my eyes started to fill with tears, I wanted to cry.

“Aaawwww, don’t be sad, it’s ok, it’s not your fault that your husband was such a selfish prick and a fucking piece of shit.” Roberta said before she hugged me.

“Ex husband, ex. I’m not married to that abusive fucking asshole anymore.” I said not believing that I just said the f word.

“Well look, if you really are dating Mason like you say you are, you’re in for a big, big surprise. Guys like him know what they are doing in bed, but I actually kinda know him since he’s the paramedic that saved my life, so I’m pretty sure he’ll let you do whatever you want to him.” Gina said.

“You think so?” I asked.

“I’m pretty sure he will, he’ll let you see his dick, he’ll let you touch it and he’ll more than likely let you suck his dick. He looks like the kind of guy that likes getting and giving oral.” She said.

“He might know all of those positions we told you about too.” Roberta said.

“I kinda hope so, I just wish I knew what I was doing, I wish I knew how to do all of that.” I said.

“Ok, we are going to help you ok?” Becca asked.

“Ok.” I said.

“Now, you say that Mason is your boyfriend, so you really need to at least learn how to please him, if he is in fact your boyfriend.” Becca said.

“He is I swear.” I said while I laughed.

“Yeah ok we still don’t believe you, anyway, what do you think about porn?” Denice said.

“I’ve never watched porn.” I said.

“Do you know what porn is?” Gina asked.

“Kind of, I know that it’s movies where people have sex and it like, shows everything.” I said.

“It does, but it’s very very very graphic as in, you’ll see the guys cock and the girls pussy. You’ll see everything they do to each other perfectly, they don’t blur anything out.” Denice said.

“They even do close ups of the guys dick in the girls pussy, or mouth, or him licking and eating the girls pussy so it’s like, in your face pretty much.” Roberta said.

“Here is what you should do, you should watch porn, if not for any other reason, watch it so you can learn how to please your alleged boyfriend.” Denice said.

“How do I do that?” I asked.

“Wow, you poor poor sheltered girl, it’s a damn shame that a girl that’s as gorgeous and hot as you are is so so innocent.” Denice said.

“It should be a crime.” Gina said.

“You have your phone right?” Becca asked.

“Yeah.” I said.

“Do you use your browser?” Denice asked.

“Yeah I do every once in a while.” I said.

“Ok, give me your hand.” Denice said.

She took a pen out and wrote a website down on my hand.

“Ok, tonight when you’re all alone, go to this website, don’t worry it’s free, and when you get to it, click on the search bar and type blow jobs in that bar and click search, actually look up slow sensual blowjobs because they go slow and it’ll be easier to learn. Watch as many as you can so you can learn how to please the guy you claim is your boyfriend.” She said.

“Ok.” I said while I looked at my hand

“Here, I’ll write that down so you can remember that.” Roberta said before she took the pen from Denice and wrote, slow sensual blow jobs on my hand.

“Make sure you wear headphones.” Becca said.

“Ok, thanks guys.” I said while I started smiling.

“You’re excited.” Gina said.

“Well yeah, I wanna please Mason so I can keep him around, what’s not exciting about that?” I asked.

I won’t lie, I was excited about learning how to please Mason. I didn’t know if he had sex with his ex fiancé or not, but if he didn’t then I didn’t have anything to worry about. I know this will sound like, really really weird, but I really hoped that he did have sex with her. In fact, I hoped he had a lot of sex with her so he would be experienced and know what he was doing. I was married to someone who had no experience and sex really sucked because of that. I hoped Mason did have experience so he would be able to teach me a bunch of things and even have sex with me in all of the positions I learned about. And if he did have sex with his ex, I would bet that sex with him would be so so amazing! If he did, I was going to surprise him with what I was going to learn from watching porn, so I decided that I was going to do it so I could learn how to please him, sin or not. I also wanted to find out what it would be like to tease him, I heard that girls like to tease their boyfriends so bad that they wanted to have sex with them really bad. I know I know, I was committing a huge sin for just think about having sex with him before we were married and it’s a sin to watch porn. But since I already committed the biggest sin of them all by leaving the order, or apostatizing as the order put it, I was going to go to hell anyway, so I figured why not. Besides, if you were like, really really sheltered like I was all my life and you see the love of your life, and you see how much he changed into an incredibly hot and incredible sexy guy like Mason did, and you reunited with him and found out that you were still madly in love with him, you might just go for it too.

Mason was so so damn hot now, oh my good god he looked so much better than he did when we courted, and he was really really hot then! He was the cutest boy in the world remember? And now he was way way wwway hotter? I didn’t think that it was even possible for the cutest boy ever to look even better than he did when he was 18 but, boy was I wrong! So I was all like, if I already sinned and I was going to hell anyway then I might as well go all out and have sex with him right? All I needed to do was find out if he had sex with his ex fiancé first. And if he didn’t then I would behave and not have sex with him till we got married, but if he did, then yeah, I was gonna go for it for sure, I would be way dumb to not go for it. I was way way more attracted to him, more than I ever was because of his new manly yummy sexy look. So there’s that and I was still in love with him like I was so because of those two things, I just knew that I was going to make love to him before we got married, I didn’t care anymore, I mean, I was already going to hell remember? So that night I went to bed after saying good night to my friends, and since I hadn’t heard from Mason because he was at his hospital job, I thought about texting him because I just wanted to let him know that I was thinking about him. It kinda worked out because I was taking myself to school to learn how to please him that night so that meant that I got to watch as much as I could.

Me: hey gorgeous I know u r working your other job tonight and can’t call or text so I just wanted to let u know that I’m doing amazing! I’m hoping they let me out so I can start my life with u. I need to talk to u and I wanna do it in person so when I c u next we’ll talk. And don’t worry it’s not bad. Luv u always

In case you couldn’t tell, I already made my mind up that I wanted to court him again and I didn’t wanna wait. I mean, we both knew that we were still in love with each other, so I figured, why wait? Besides, I kinda knew he didn’t want to wait because he hinted to that. So, because of that, I had to educate myself, I had to because if he let me do what I’ve always wanted to do, I at least needed to know what I was doing. I found the selfie he took of himself for me with my phone and kissed it like I did every night. Then I went to my browser and went to the website that I had written on my hand. What I saw almost made me sick because I hadn’t seen anything like that before. I saw lots of naked girls and guys who were having sex and I just stared at it for a minute before I put it down and started getting ready for my bath. While I was getting ready, I realized that I was starting to like what I saw, and I started to get turned on. So I went back to my phone and looked at it again, and that’s when I started to get really really horny, like, oh my god I was getting horny! I put my phone down and I took my bath and when I got done, I didn’t dress in much clothes at all. I had a feeling that I was going to get even hornier watching the videos. I got in my bed and opened my browser and typed “slow sensual blow jobs” in the search bar, and that’s when I saw a bunch of videos that had girls that were doing exactly what I’ve always wanted to do, but never got to.

I saw this blonde girl who had platinum blonde hair like mine, only it wasn’t as long as mine, on a bed. She had a black little shirt on and a black bow in her hair. Because she had hair like mine, I had to watch that because it would be easy for me to pretend that I was watching me sucking Masons dick. I loved that the guy had a dick that was way bigger than my ex husbands and it was really nice. Another thing I liked a lot about it was that the guy shaved down there. It was all bald and really really, oh god it was so so nice! Anyway, the girl is on her bed and the guy walks up to her completely naked, and she looks at it. She touches his dick and balls while she looks at it, and all of a sudden, she sticks her tongue out and licks him. She licked him a few times before she lifts it up and puts his dick in her mouth. I saw her cheeks suck in and it looked like she was having sex with him, only with her mouth.

“Oh my god I wanna do that so bad.” I whispered while I watched her.

Then she licks the guys dick and ends up sucking his dick again, I watched how she did it several different ways.