It began with Rape and ended with Desire.

I was 16 and I had invited a male friend (Mike) over to our place for a swim. He was 17 and we had been friends and had virtually grown up together as our parents were close friends.

We had been sunning ourselves on the poolside for a while and decided to go in for a swim.

The both of us did a few laps and I pulled up on the steps for a rest. He did a couple more and joined me.

We sat and talked for a while and he asked me if I had a boy friend – as he said – apart from me. In the meanwhile we had towelled off and were sitting together having a drink by the pool.

I laughed and said he wasn’t my boyfriend just a friend and was more like a brother than a boyfriend.

He got a little bit serious and said I hoped that our friendship was developing into something and he hoped was more than just being a brother to me.

I was a little taken back –I said sure I liked him – a lot – but not yet as a serious boy friend. We had grown up together and there was not another person that knew me as well as he did or shared secrets together as we had done.

Mike had escorted me to my formals and I had accompanied him to his formal activities at school etc and on a couple of times we had kissed in a non erotic way and I had to admit it did stir up the feelings inside me the last time. We had kissed open mouthed and there was a little passion there which I liked but I didn’t want to encourage him as I was seeing another boy at the time. It was a foregone conclusion between our parents that we would partner each other at the formal events that we were required to attend. I had explained this to my boy friend (Tony) and he was cool with it.

Mike asked me why I had invited him rather than Tony to have a swim.

I explained Tony was away on holidays with his parents and we were not that serious. I wasn’t going to tell him the real reason.

Then Mike floored me – he asked me if I had ever slept with Tony.

I said no way – what did he think I was.

He then said he had hoped that the two of us could get a bit more serious and he would like the two of us to be a little closer than we had in the past. He said he would like the two of us to be an item. He said I heard Tony blotted his copy book the other week – obviously he was aware I had been involved in an incident a couple of weeks earlier – evidently our parents had discussed the night Tony had virtually raped me.

I had been keeping company with Tony for a while and we had discussed having sex together – we had been doing a bit of feeling etc and touching and masturbating each other. We had slipped our pants off but he had not penetrated me. I had discussed sex and I had agreed to sleep with him. There was one condition and it would be in my bedroom or somewhere more pleasant than on the back seat of his car. That particular night he had been drinking and was not prepared to wait and forced himself upon me and my virginity was taken under circumstances I would have preferred to be more memorable. He had ejaculated inside me and I was scared of becoming pregnant. When I arrived home I was distressed and my parents noticed my torn clothing and distress. I immediately started crying and was so upset and frightened I divulged exactly what had happened. I told them everything. They understood and it was agreed no action would be taken against him realising the situation and that I had virtually agreed to sleep with him but not under those circumstances. They told me I was never to see him again. That was not going to be a problem with me. My mother asked if he had ejaculated inside me and I told her he had. She started to talk about what will happen if I am pregnant. I told her I was aware of the rhythm method and I had already worked out that I was in a safe part of my cycle. She was surprised I knew that. I learned that at Sex ed at school I told her. She would have been stunned at what I really knew.

I told Mike that I was upset now that he had found out, and that my parents must have discussed it with his. He said that wasn’t the case. It seems this guy had told a few people I was a terrible fuck and was making me out to be some sort of slut – and I begged him to do it to me. There was no mention of him raping me or taking my virginity.

I was horrified and burst into tears. I said that that was the most horrible and biggest pack of lies I had ever heard. He comforted me and we cuddled together as I wept.

After a few minutes I got myself together and said look – we are probably closer than brother and sister because of what we know about each other. I was aware he had slept with two girls I knew well – he had confided in me a few months earlier as he wanted me to find out what they thought of him. I then recounted my experience with Tony and the more I talked the better I felt – it was like a confession.

Then he said how sorry he was – because he knew me so well he could not believe what Tony had claimed had happened. He had often wished the two of us would have the experience of sharing our virginity together.

I said what about Jan and Sue – he was aware I knew he had slept with both of them and he had used condoms with them. They had told me. He even asked me what they thought of him in bed and I said well they said you were good fun and they both seemed to agree it was good..
I said how did it happen? – going to bed with both of them and they both knew. He told me he had an opportunity with Jan one night after a few drinks they both had one too many and without thinking just did it together. Than a week or so later they were all at another party and Jan’s best friend Sue told him she would like him to take her to bed like he did Jan. Jan was there with them and said she had no problems and to do it with Sue too after all they were not going together. She told them have fun…. I did.
I was a bit surprised that he had sex with both of them and Jan had suggested it. He had never told me he had hoped the two of us would have shared our virginity together.

I said I would be honest and had never considered it with him.

We talked for a while as he held me and I began to question him about the feelings he had for me – the fact he wanted the two of us to sleep together – was that a wish or did he have more serious feelings for me. The way I was feeling right then I would have agreed to do it with him right then.

He said at the time it was a wish and he had often had dreams about the two of us being together – like that – as he put it. In the past few weeks his feelings had changed and now he was seeing me as a more serious romance – he said I don’t know what I feel but I am respecting you more as a woman – things are beginning to show, your body is changing and you are more attractive to me now than just as a friend. To be perfectly honest believe I am forming a serious romantic attraction and I want to see if you feel the same way.

Now I was completely flabbergasted – I had no idea he had those feeling for me but I do admit the night we kissed I felt things inside me that I had only felt when I was with Tony – before he raped me. The things we did together sexually were exciting and it was that sort of excitement I felt when Mike and I kissed that night.

I don’t know why but I kissed him and I kissed him the way I did that night only with more desire and passion that I had ever expressed with him before. He responded and the way I was laying with him I felt his cock harden in his swimmers and my nipples did the same. I snuggled against him and I moved to let him know I could feel the way he was feeling about me. I took his hand and I put it under my bikini top and onto my bare breast. The passion between us rose as I put my hand down to feel his hardness through his shorts and he rubbed my nipple between his fingers.

After a long passionate kiss we separated and I said – now I know what you were feeling when you told me you were having those dreams – I think I want to feel the same way you did. Will you do that with me – I want to feel like a woman so much – and not like a whore even though I want to be with you.
I want to make love not just have sex – I want to know what real sex feels like and I know you know. I admit I did feel jealous when I heard you speak of your time with Jan and Sue. It must have been good for Jan to suggest that you and Sue do it together. I want to feel like we are making love for the first time – it will be for me as my first occasion was anything but enjoyable and pleasant – I was raped and felt nothing. Now I want it to feel like I am making that decision for the first time. Will you?

He said I want you more than anything in the world and if we can be like this once we can be like it forever. I can tell you that the way I feel right now is nothing like the feeling I had when I slept with both Jan and Sue. That was something else – a liaison an experience – it wasn’t love for them it was their body I wanted to share and I do admit I enjoyed and from all events they did to as they compared notes afterwards as you know. Now can we go to your bedroom and do it properly – like you wished for it to happen.

Oh my god I said – this is not happening – I can’t believe it. I want this so much and with you. Here take off your swimmers and I will do the same and we can walk naked to our love nest. I want to explore and enjoy every part of you and for you to do the same with me – we have all day to do this.

The both of us undressed and I looked at his hard cock sticking straight out. It was beautiful. He looked at my emerging breasts which were already about 34 and firm and hard. He glanced at my pubic patch and said well well – that’s a bit different to what I expected. It looks beautiful – how long have you had it like that.

For a few months – I did it for Tony when we used to get together naked and touch and feel each other – he wanted to go down on me and I wouldn’t do it or give him oral sex either – that didn’t please him but now I am so glad I never agreed to do it together – this is as far as I would go. I am glad you like it – I do.

We walked hand in hand or should I say almost ran to the bedroom – neither of us wanted to waste a second we were going to do this before we realised what we were doing.

We got to my room and threw our swimmers onto the floor and we kissed hungrily and with passion. Before now Mike was an old friend now he was going to be my lover. I could feel his hard penis between my legs and rubbing against my vagina – it felt awesome. It was going to be inside me sooner than later. We fondled each other – he had his hands on my breasts and squeezing them and touching my now extremely sensitive nipples. I had my hand on his cock slowly stroking him as I had done a few times to Tony until eventually Tony reached orgasm and ejaculated – that was amazing in my mind and I watched him spurt his semen over me. On one occasion he wanted me to take it in my mouth but I would not and he did it on my face. Now I was doing the same to Mike. This time I wanted him to make love to me first. Later if he asked I would take his semen in my mouth – I was so aroused I would do anything for him but first I was going to make love with him and allow him to have his pleasure and ejaculate into me. I had done some quick calculations between the pool and my bedroom and I believed I was in a safe part of my cycle. I hoped so anyhow.

He said let’s do it – if we keep this up I will disgrace myself and it will be all over before we start.

I was going to do anything he asked of me. To me this was going to be my big moment having sex – what had happened before was not sex it was fucking and I wanted to dismiss it from my mind. Since I had been in my room passionately embracing Mike I had decided he was going to be the first man in my life I had decided this was going to be my deflowering – my first time – my sharing of my virginity with him – not that bastard Tony.

I lay on my bed naked as I had done many times naked when I had masturbated. Mike stood beside the bed and looked down at me and smiled and said you are the most beautiful girl in the world and I want to make love to her. His cock was sticking out before him hard. I will never forget the sight of him standing there ready to make love to me. I smiled back and said please make me the happiest girl in the world. I rolled over and kissed the top of his cock and noticed some moisture – which I later learned was pre cum – it had no taste and was clear unlike like semen I had seen before. Then he got up onto the bed and he leant over me and we kissed gently lips to lips and then he readied himself and looked down at me and said – that is the most beautiful sight in the world; you are beautiful, are you ready.

I said please – do it to me and make me a woman.

He took his cock in his hand and guided it to my vagina and I watched as he slipped the head of it between the labia and stopped – I could see it clearly as I had no hair on that part of me. I had my legs pulled back exposing my vagina for him to do with it as he pleased.

He paused and said is everything ok – this is what you really want? He was doing everything perfectly – no hurry, no rush, gently and lovingly. The top or helmet of his cock was perfectly proportioned and looked beautiful as he held his shaft of magnificence and slowly pressed his body to mine and the head of it slowly disappeared into my waiting body. The feel of the head of his penis then the shaft beginning to enter me was an absolute delight – the beautiful thick penis with his scrotum skin tight and full of the semen he would eventually empty into me and his hair surrounded the base of it; gradually it began to completely disappear deep into my waiting and sensual tight vagina. He pushed gently until the thickness of him had parted the sides of my vagina and slowly entered me and gradually filled the most wonderful part of me. I looked down and the hair of our pubic region was crushing together. He was completely inside me now. The sensation I enjoyed as his cock filled my body was amazing. I could feel the length of him almost up to my tummy. I had never felt or enjoyed anything like this before – it was amazing. I now realised how wonderful making love can be. My earlier experience with Tony was completely the opposite to what Mike was doing now – Mike is being soft and gentle – previously Tony was rough and barbaric the way he forced himself into me and ravished me internally and abused my virgin body. I felt nothing other than revolt ion – I was being raped. This is the way I had wanted to share my virginity with a man.

Oh god I said – this is what I have waited 16 years for – it has happened and now I am a woman. I could not imagine anything so beautiful.

By now I could feel him really deep inside me and he was laying on my body – he kissed me and then lifted himself and began to lift and drive that wonderful penis to and fro inside my body and he soon had a rhythm going that I could not do anything but lay there and enjoy.