Coming of age_(0)

Now 26, having just writen about Winston, the wonder dog, laying back thinking about my life. It’s been quite a ride to say the least. Where do I begin? Back in 1981 as a young girl, I had millions of hormones racing through my body but not aware of my changing. I wonder what it feels liike to have sex? What if he said no? What if he said I’m ugly? I stood there looking at myself in the full length bathroom morror, not happy woth what I was looking at!. Small tits that hurt as they were growing,, skinny, a bit of red pubic hair, yuk, I was a mess! Did all these beautiful models you see start out like this? I bet they didn’t! Well, there nothing I can do about that, this is me and went to bed disgusted with myself. Laying there in the dark, it wasn’t long before I began to fantisize about being older, walking down a runway, people applauding, Twerling around, a cry went up from the audience with shouts of bravo! Raising my nightgown, this very handsome man met me as I came off stage saying, I want you, I need youi, I must have you, now! This was extasy as he kissed me long and hard and then I climaxed! I loved to masturbate but when I finished, there was always a let down and rooled over to go to sleep frustrated.

As time wore on, I was masturbating more. I would wake up horny, be horny all day and go to bed horny! It got so bad that I had to put tissue down there. I didn’t know what to do, I just carried on the best I could thinking that all girls were this way. School was now out, I had no purpose in life other than to just hang out. On this particular day, I was in the park watching some people play tennis. Boring!
“Do you play?” I turned to see this boy a bit older than me smiling .
“Um…ah…!” Nice Rhonda, he’ll think your retarded!
“My partner didn’t show up, thought you may play” Wow! Are his teeth sparkling?
“Uh no…I would like to learn” God he’s cute!
“Want to go for a walk?” Whew! What a dynamite smile.
“Sure!” smiling at him. Now don’t trip on something!
We walked along talking about school and other un-important things when he stopped saying,
“I have to take a leak, come on” taking off into the bushes.
He has to pee? So why am I following him, he doesn’t need help. No one could see us, we were in thick brush back off the path by 50 feet.
“Keep am eye out for me will you?” as pulled his zipper down. Yes I turned away!
He let out a sigh and heard the urine hitting the ground when he said,
“Want to take a look?”
Not that I was dying to see him pee, I just turned around. Whew! I never ssen a dick, pictures yes but for real, no. Look at that! i was mesmerized, in a trance, paralized, I couldn’t move as pee flowed from it. In one move, he reached over taking my hamd putting it directly on his penis. I knew I shouldn’t be doing this, I just couldn’t help myself.

My mind was a complete blank, not a thought in my head! I couldn’t let go and i couldn’t take my eyes off his now erect penis. Placing his hand on mine, he started my hand going back and forth and wow, what a strange feeling! His dick was incredibly hard however the skin was so soft.
“Yes, that’s it….I like that…a bit faster” putting his arm around my shoulder.
“Do you suck?” What? What did he say? I didn’t understand so I shook my head no.
What am I doing? My neart was pounding, my breathing rapid when he moaned.
“I’m…rea…..” That’s all he said with his dick pulsing and stuff squirting out the end.