Colin’s Fault

Dean held my hand. “Come on Lex!” he whispered. “They don’t bite!” Dean’s friends had always scared me. They were all three years older, and no matter how hard I tried, they never seemed to like me.

“Dean,” I said. “I don’t want to be here.” He looked at me, his face dimming.
“Fine, we’ll leave soon. But please, just try to have fun!” I smiled weakly and followed him down to his best friend Colin’s basement.
“Hey Lex, Dean,” Colin’s voice could be heard above all the chatter. Everyone quieted down. Lexi was here. Yes, Dean had brought his little sister again.
“Dean!” I whispered. “No one wants me here!”
“Don’t be silly!” he laughed. “They’ll love you, just loosen up!” I tried really hard to lighten up. So what that all my brothers friends were three years older? So what that most of the guys were gorgeous and looking at me like I was trash? And so what if the girls were looking at me like that too?
“Dean, look how their looking at me! I’m to young, I’m to ugly!” I said once we’d sat down.
“You’re gorgeous,” I heard over my shoulder, but it wasn’t Dean speaking to me. I spun around, to find Colin looking at me with a huge grin on his face.
“Your just saying that to be nice!” I said. “Because if you don’t, Dean will get mad.”
“I wouldn’t say that so Dean wouldn’t get mad. God, I’ve told him I’ve wanted to fuck half his girlfriends, and he’s been fucking pissed at me, so if he hears I think your hot, god, you’re his sister, he’d kill me.” I blinked. Was I hearing right? So Colin thought I was hot.
“I feel too young to be here,” I said again. But before Colin could answer, I heard Dean whispering in my ear.
“Then we’ll go. Jason just told me he brought date rape, and I don’t want you getting mixed up in that. Sorry Colin, we’re out.” Colin lifted his hand and my brother and he did some weird handshake they’d done since they were 13. I shivered. Date Rape. God, I don’t want to get raped for my first time. Dean took my hand and stood up. “Goodnight all!” he said, with a wave. “Sorry we can’t stay longer.” With that, we left.

“Dean?” I asked on the car ride home.
“Yeah Lex?” His eyes watched the road, and his face was hard.
“Um, have you ever… well you know?” I could just come out and ask my older brother if he’d ever fucked a girl.
“No, I dunno what you mean.”
“Have you ever had, uh, have you and your girlfriends?” That was all I could get out. We pulled up to a stop sign and he looked at me. His gray eyes staring right at me, and his features were hard. That date rape thing must have really scared him.
“Have I ever had sex with my girlfriends?” I nodded.