Caring for my daughter – Part 8 – Sexercises

A few days have passed. We did end up going to the doctor because of Ava’s lactation issue and the doctor confirmed that this is a common occurrence during teen years and nothing to be worried about. “It will go away on its own in most cases after some time” the doctor explained. She even added that it can occur in guys! I had no idea and both Ava and me were baffled and relieved at the same time. The doctor recommended to buy a breast pump if the breasts feel sore due to a build up of milk.

I can’t stop thinking about what happened that day in the bathtub. Things between Ava and me are escalating. Ava was sitting straight on my dick, pressing it flat against my tummy with her pussy. And even worse, the whole situation got so out of control! Licking the milk out of her breasts, passing it on into her mouth – all while she was grinding her pussy against my dick underwater. What are we doing? She’s my daughter! Have I completely lost my mind? Not to mention the worst part – I exploded violently under water from her pussy job and pumped my semen directly all over her flower. My semen all over my daughter’s pussy! What kind of father am I?

I’m realizing that in my mind I keep blaming Ava for it. She’s making these inappropriate advances on me. Something seems to be wrong with her. It must be the recent sudden death of her mother, the accident and the injuries leaving her in pain and helpless with splinted arms. It seems like she’s using sexual pleasure as a distraction from her miserable reality. But doesn’t she get that this is inappropriate? That she shouldn’t do this with her father? What’s going on in her head that she doesn’t understand this boundary?

Sadly, that’s when I’m realizing that I’m terrible at setting boundaries. I do put up some resistance against her advances, but truth be told, I think I might just be doing what I’m accusing Ava of: using this sexual pleasure as a distraction, as an escape from the terrible blow fate has dealt us. I’m feeling so trapped in my tiny world. Working from home, caring for Ava. I haven’t had any time for myself. My sexual desires are penned up and when Ava starts her teasing, my determination to deny her is melting away like butter.

Ever since the good news about her lactation issue Ava has been in a good mood. We have just had dinner. I have ordered Pho for takeaway and fed her while she’s in her bed. We are sitting in her bed now. Ava is naked as usual and leaning against my shoulder. “That was delicious, wasn’t it?” “Yeah, I love Vietnamese. I’m so glad you found that place, dad.” We’re cuddling for a bit, then I hear Ava say: “Dad, would you mind cuddling with me? You know, nude, like I used to with mom?” Adrenaline is shooting through my body. Oh my goodness. She wants it again? I’m terrified to notice that I’m getting a semi-erection already, just thinking about it. Oh my goodness. What’s wrong with me today?

“Um, sure honey. Let me just take off my clothes.” I’m removing my shirt and my shorts. I’m sitting on the edge of the bed in my boxer shorts. Oh no! I’m hard already! I’m taking off my boxers and I’m sitting down again, looking at my erect dick. I really don’t know what to say. I’m confessing: “Darling, I know I should be used to this by now, but I’m still embarrassing myself when I’m nude with you. Maybe we should cuddle another day?” I’m putting a hand near my crotch, partially covering my hardness. I’m catching Ava looking at my erection for several moments. Then she dismisses my concern: “It’s ok dad. Don’t worry too much. It has always passed so far, hasn’t it?” “Yeah I guess.” I’m sitting down next to her, naked, still trying to cover my erection.

Ava is leaning against my shoulder. I’m focussing as much as I can and after some time I’m finally back to my normal size. I’m letting my hand slide down to my side. It is no longer necessary to cover up my embarrassment. “Dad, I almost forgot. The physiotherapist sent through my new exercises. I’ve printed them out. Shall we go through them quickly?” Something is different about Ava’s voice. Do I hear nervousness in it? “Alright, let’s get it over with.” Ava is pointing towards a few sheets of paper on the printer next to her bed. I’m having a look at the exercises. They don’t seem right. They seem overly sexual. I have a feeling these are not the actual exercises prescribed by the doctor. Oh my god! Is this really happening? The worst thing is – I don’t want to stop it today.

My heart rate is already through the roof. I’m overcome with excitement but I’m trying to act as normally as possible: “Ok, number one. Assisted leg stretches.” I’m helping Ava to get into position. Lie down on her back. The instructions advise to spread her legs, hold them at the middle of her thighs, pushing down gently to increase pressure. I’m getting a heavenly view of her private parts.

Ava is looking at the printouts: “Ok, first stretch my legs sideways.” I’m kneeling on the bed, in front of her. My dick is so close to her pussy! “Like this? Am I pushing down too hard?” “No, dad, it’s just fine.” I can’t help but having a closer look at her pussy. It’s glistening beautifully. I can see a bit of her pink inside. I keep holding the tension on her thighs. I’m briefly gazing at Ava’s face. Oh my! She’s staring at my dick. I’m looking down at my dick and without having realized it, I’m already hard. “I’m so sorry, Ava. I’m just no good at this nudist thing.” “That’s ok, dad.