Caring for my daughter – Part 6 – Bathtub

I am an utter emotional mess. I don’t know what to make of the events in the past days. I feel like this situation is getting out of control. My daughter Ava and I are crossing more and more boundaries. It isn’t right. But why does it feel so good? It has become obvious that Ava needs sexual release. I won’t blame her for that. It’s natural and she does seem to come after her mom; her sex drive seems to be considerably higher than average. But I would feel much better if she found another way to satisfy herself without involving me. It’s so wrong. I’m her father!

Should I be brave and just ask her if I should get her a masturbation device? One she can control from her computer tablet? I really can’t stand cuddling with her. It’s so wrong when my dick gets in contact with her body. The worst thing is that I get so aroused when cuddling with her, that sometimes I’m feeling that I’m losing control. But it’s so hard for me to deny Ava’s wishes. I’ve always had trouble with that. She’s too sweet, too beautiful. I just can’t resist my desire to make her happy and most of the time I give in. If only her mom Debbie hadn’t passed away. Then I wouldn’t be in this terrible situation. I’m really feeling sorry for myself. I have to admit I can’t deal with this grief and this whole mess. I can’t think clearly.

Over the last few days, I have avoided cuddling with Ava. I even skipped bed bathing her to avoid temptation. I think that may be the reason why Ava once again has been in a fairly bad mood. During the telehealth appointment today, the nurse strongly advised us that Ava should take a proper bath once in a while, not just bed-baths. The nurse was under the impression that this had been communicated to us previously, but it hadn’t. I had no idea that the splints on Ava’s arms could be wrapped with a waterproof sheet. When the nurse learned about Ava not having taken a bath since the accident, she told us to do this immediately today. I feel sorry for Ava. It seems that I didn’t take proper care of her. At the same time, I’m also dreading bathing her, being exposed to her nude again. I really hope this will go well.

I’m in the bathroom with Ava. She’s naked and looks as beautiful as ever. I’m gently lowering her into the bath-tub. “Here you go, honey. Are you comfortable like this? You won’t slip down into the bathtub? All safe?” Ava is wiggling her body sideways a few times and replies: “Yeah, comfy and safe dad. It’s all good.” Ava’s mood is slightly better now. She seems to enjoy the change of scenery. I’m feeling sorry for her. Having to spend so much time in bed, no wonder she’s prone to being in a low mood.

I’m switching on the tap and adjust the water temperature. The tap has a long swivel neck. I’m positioning the water stream over Ava’s thigh: “Temperature ok, honey?” Ava giggles, not being able to contain her joy: “Haha, yeah it’s fine. It feels so good! I haven’t had a bath in so long! Ah!” “It was about time,” I’m telling Ava with a cheeky voice, pinching my nose, making a facial expression and hand gesture implying a bad smell. “You’re so mean dad!” Ava replies laughing. “First of all I’m not smelly at all and even if I was, then it would be your fault!” I’m laughing as well and positioning the tap so that the water stream is between Ava’s knees.

Suddenly a thought is hitting me: “She can masturbate with the water stream!” My heart is jumping from joy. Oh my god! This is excellent. I can just give her some private time with the water stream. She’s able to turn the neck of the tap in the right position with her hand and she can adjust her body, just a little, enough to make this work. Maybe then she won’t request to cuddle nude with me again! I’m excited! I’m adjusting the water stream to a decent pressure: “I’ll let this run for a few minutes until the tub fills up. I’ll go out in the meantime, finishing some chores. Give me a shout when the water is up until here, ok, then I’ll come back?” “Sure dad.”

I’m closing the door to the bathroom behind me. I’m thrilled. This could be a game changer. I’m getting started with some chores, staying close to the bathroom so that I won’t miss Ava’s call when she’s ready.