Bondage Obsession

After college I moved to northeastern Pennsylvania and finally had my own apartment and privacy. All during college I was haunted with fantasies of bondage, torture, humiliation, and sexual abuse. My new found privacy allowed me to serf the Internet for topics related to my fantasies and during these sessions I discoverd a magazine called “Bound and Gagged”which was a magazine dedicated to male bondage.The bondage was good but not quite what I was interested in.It was then I realized I more closely identified with females in bondage. As I viewed more female bondage photographs I realized that I enjoyed imagining myself in their predicament, but also in their clothing. I had no trouble finding transvestie boutiques on the Internet and immediately began by purchasing some sexy lingerie panties, garter belts, sheer black nylon stockings and bra’s. I remember the thrill the first-time I pulled on those stockings. I felt even more submissive than ever before and from that moment on I began practicing self bondage, but self bondage was not nearly satisfying enough so I knew I had to find some way to experience the real thing. I began serfing the net and found some adult sites like alt.com, however at first I was afraid to place a personal so I came up with an alternate solution. Since I moved to this area I had frequented several adult book stores and I knew that at least two of them had bulletin boards for adult oriented notes or ads.After several hours of consideration I came up with an ad that I thought might get some response so I made two copies and ventured out to post them an even as I did that I had some reservations, however, I believed I was safe because I was only giving out my email address and I could have an email exchange to see if I was comfortable with whomever might respond. My ads read:

Tired of searching for that elusive submissive female who you can tightly bind and torment to persuade her to satisfy your every desire no matter how humiliating or degrading it may be to her. I offer you a possible alternative. Sex is not necessary it is optional you may or may not exercise your option. I am a passable ultra-submissive masochistic transvestite who could,and for that matter should, be tortured into satisfying your every sexual desire no matter how humiliating or degrading it may be to me. Mild to moderate torments or tortures are acceptable and desired I only ask that I not be marked or permanently marked in anyway.There is only one thing you can’t do to me that you could do to a female submissive.