Baysitter & Hubby Part 1

My name is “Nikky”…I was molested from the age of 7 to high school. There were various situations and people at different times. I think these instances continued due to priors that made it seem to be “OK” for the next one to take place, but all the while knowing it was wrong. I am an African-American female & black people don’t talk about being molested…hell, we don’t talk about sex! Everything is on the hush or swept under the rug. This caused me emotional issues in my adolescent & adult years.
When I was 27yo this turned taboo for me as I found myself replaying scenarios of some those acts during solo masturbation. I felt disgusted, dirty & embarrassed. I tried cleaning up my thoughts but several weeks later I did again. I struggled with the guilt that something that had affected me negatively I was now reliving during masturbation & bringing myself to climax. I’ve analyzed my dilemma & figured something triggered it & will write about that later. I’ve searched the net for reasons why this was happening & couldn’t find anything that involved women let alone BLACK WOMEN! So if there are any black women who can relate please share your experiences & other taboos. My stories are TRUE!! Names are changed.

This story takes place when I was 7yo.