A Lifelong Affair pt. 3

Preface:

All the words in the world could not express our connection so we really never used them. Any feelings inside that people translated into mushy talk was not necessary between Lilly and I. We talked about many things but our feelings for each other was never a subject,
Just like our first time established the bond our next time simply cemented it. Time, and it’s passing, meant nothing to us as what we had was forever. We did need nourishment from one another but what we did when we did it sustained us.
Nothing that happened in our individual lives ever diminished what we had. Our connection was not above or below the fray rather it meandered through, around and between everything in life.


A Lifelong Affair pt 3:
We woke a couple hours later exactly as we went to sleep, me on my back and her with an arm draped over my chest. I had never been spent like that in my life and I have had some pretty hot sex over the years.
It was raining outside meaning we were stuck indoors and it was just as well since it gave us a chance to talk. Turns out she wasn’t exactly forthcoming about her anxiety last night regarding her new hair color and her boyfriends reaction. Yeah we know each other but we’re not exactly psychic either.
He had actually asked her to marry him. That blew me away just hearing it even though they have been seriously dating for a little over a year. She didn’t give him an answer other than she would have to seriously think about it. I have met her boyfriend, his name is Tom, on many occasions and he seemed to be a decent guy. There were to many things happening inside of Lilly already and when he popped the question she was simply overwhelmed.
She had discovered a part of herself when we had sex for the first time yet she still hadn’t found her identity. When she finally died her hair blonde she said she was closer to it but there was still something intangible. Actually she denied it, as well as I did, or rather we both ignored it until now. She said she felt complete when I was inside of her and I admitted it was the same for me.
We knew it, felt it and always had but when looking at the big picture what could we about it, NOTHING. All we could do was give each other our virginity, what we did here last night and what we would do on other occasions when needed.
We were never jealous of each other being in a relationship and it would be the same concerning marriage. It is a huge and serious step though, not to be taken lightly. We were not going to have a life together as a couple it was as simple as that. We were not moving far away and abandoning family and all the necessary things a brother and sister would have to do to make that happen.
We had sated our desire, filled our curiosity and nourish our soul now we had to go on with “normal” lives.

As confusing as life can be with all the decisions to be made she did seriously consider the marriage proposal and decided to marry Tom. I thought she was still to young and hadn’t experienced enough of life yet but I have never been one to preach or try to sway ones thoughts. I simply thought it was a mistake and not because of Tom rather like the first time we get married we later figure out we were simply young and stupid. I also thought that since she didn’t have a ready answer when he asked her then decided to do it then it was disaster from the get go however, I truly hoped for the best.