A Lifelong Affair pt. 2

Preface:

I couldn’t belive I had finally “got me some”, it was just as good as my wild imagination. While I had always thought about fucking my sister Lilly I really never anticipated it would happen.
All those years back when we had the opportunity to play in bed and explore each other we were engaging in foreplay before we even knew what that was.
I did learn a lesson back then, the lesson was patience. I’m not sure what, if anything, Lilly ever learned from our early experiences but I think it made me into a better lover. To get my dick inside a pussy was all consuming before but after that was accomplished it became an overpowering force or a quest to get more and more.
I loved my sister and now I was struggling with desires that made me question the fine line between love and the need to have a girl to tap anytime I needed it.
Did I still love her because she was my sister or were my needs betraying my feelings. I wondered what partiular torment she may have internally when it comes to what we did and what we could still do.
Like me I am sure she kept it supressed and dealt with it inside but it always makes one wonder how the other person will feel about it in the future.
These are the thoughts people have when they are “in love” but I convinced myself it wasn’t that. I did love Lilly without a doubt but I wasn’t “in love” with her, it was something else, something different, maybe something above being “in love”.
I was never able to put my finger on it precisely other than we simply shared a special connection. It was felt more than it was ever talked about between us. We never really did talk about it over the years, we didn’t have to we just “felt it”.

You would think after Lilly and I did it we would be or had been fucking like rabbits but we didn’t, with each other anyway. We went on with life and relationships like most siblings do.
What Lilly and I did produce was a sort of “calm” between us or like an itch that had been scratched in a way or it was still a smoldering fire which was transmitted via eye contact at certain times.
When we were together around family, friends, her boyfriend(s), my girlfriend(s) or whatever we would laugh and catch each others eye and look just a tiny little bit longer than would be usual among siblings.
We knew with our eyes that it was ever present in our thoughts and it was like we were always forcing ourselves to “be good”. Although we never regretted it we knew that not very many would understand it and to succumb to our suppressed desires would lead to exposure, riddicule and general embarrasment for many people.

It was always tough to keep that fire from raging out of control but a controlled burn is needed now and again.


A Life Long Affair pt 2:

I was 21 now but moved out only the year prior and shared an apartment with a friend who has now moved out. I didn’t want to do the roomate thing anymore and was able to get a one bedroom apartment in the same complex.
It was early Friday evening and there I am in my new place, which was still in some disarray, when I heard a knock on the door the same time it was being opened,

“HELLO”, she called.

I had a box in my hand and turned to see Lilly which caused me to stop dead in my tracks and stare at her.

“What do you think”, she asked.

I couldn’t belive it, she had went blonde. I am not partial to blondes per se and when you are accustommed to hair color then a change typically just doesn’t work. She always had natural dark brown hair but somehow being a blonde suited her more than I would have ever thought.
Her name was certainly appropriate with her face and demeanor and now the hair completed it. She was always a quiet, sweet innocent little flower of a girl but with her shape and hair you would figure her to be named Megan or Ashley but this was her look.

“I LIKE IT, that is……YOU”, I said nodding my head in approval.

She had been up on her tip toes waiting for my reaction and when she got what she wanted to hear she began to bounce with glee. She stopped bouncing and lightly walked up to me with her arms strecthed out. I had my hands full of boxed items or I would have returned the gesture. She was so happy she couldn’t wait and leaned into my side with her arms around my waist.

“I’ve never felt more like ME in my whole life until I did this”, she said.

That set the tone for her evening and she insisted that she stay and help me arrainge my place, put things away, etc. This was realy unplanned and I had no idea I would see her today and with it being Friday evening I had no intention on imposing even though she offered.
As usual her and some friends planned to get together and go out so there was no way I could ask her to put that off especially when she wanted to get out there and sport her new hair color.
We gave each other the obligatory hug and I saw her out the door and watched as she bounded down the steps. It was summer and she was dressed for the hot weather with thin white shorts that were not tight around her legs and a spagetti strap top.
I stood there admiring how hot she looked and when she reached the bottom of the steps she turned to smile and wave at me. I threw my hand up and continued to watch as she got to her car, I didn’t turn to go back inside until she was in the car and backing out.


I went back in my apartment, closed the door and thought about her bounding down the steps,

“WHEW”, I said out loud while shaking my head side to side.

It really lets you know you are a man when you ogle something like that. My memories were brought to the surface as I stood there and with her fresh in my minds eye I was no longer interested in continuing what I needed to do. I went straight to my bedroom, dropped my shorts and laid back taking my cock in hand.
My thoughts had already caused me to get a chubby so with gentle strokes and the vision of Lilly in her attire I quickly had a very stiff pole in my hand. I had jacked off countless times thinking about Lilly, my current girlfriend or any off of a whole list of woman over the years. Every once in a while though I needed a completely naughty situation in my head to get the job done and fucking Lilly in my mind always did the trick.

While I worked my tool I conjured up a scenario wherein Lilly was on her knee’s and I was taking her from behind. I had no thoughts of being gentle as I only thought about straight out fucking as my hand strokes increased. As I imagined my fingers dug into her hips while I thrusted in and out of her hole I was able to quickly coax a load of cum from my balls.
I grunted as I worked feverishly to finish up just as the friction was getting to be to much. Thinking about my cum shooting inside of Lilly brought it on and I roared out loud as cum exploded from my dick. I moaned and groaned while I pumped my shaft and my cock convulsed to expel my spunk.
I laid there catching my breath and let the dizzy feeling of relief fade away before I could stand. I got up and wiped cum from my stomach and hand then went in to wash up.
I felt better now and was able to get back on the tasks at hand and finish things in my apartment, I needed to get the sense of normalcy back. By the time I finished up it was late and I was tired as hell but when I laid down I wanted to stroke one off again but before I could gather up the energy to start I fell asleep.

I was woken up by the rock and roll ringtone on my cell and I wanted to ignore it thinking I had just went to sleep but the light of the morning sun coming into the window let me know otherwise.
I answered in a groggy fashion and it was Lilly, she wanted to come to my apartment complex to go swimming in the pool and hang out. This was fine with me since my girlfriend was working this weekend and I didn’t have any real plans. I was carrying on a short distance relationship with a woman I who worked at a resturant in a town about 35 miles from here. It wasn’t worth the commute if she lived in this town so she stayed closer to work and we saw each other about every other weekend.
I dragged myself out of bed and showered even though Lilly wouldn’t be here until around noon. I was ready when she got to my place and she even brought lunch so we ate while talking before going to the pool.
She was a bit sad as opposed to yesterday evening when I saw her. She explained that her boyfriend was less then happy with her new hair but her girlfriends loved, that kept her spirits up plus the fact that I approved.
Now that we were through with lunch and talk she went into the bathroom to change. She came out with a scrumptious bikini, the bottoms were the type that had ties on the side which I always thought was so hot on a woman.

We spent the day in or around the pool, when she wasn’t in the water she laid out catching some sun and of course she caught her share of looks from the other males, not to mention myself.
The way she looked in her bikini belied her quiet nature plus her innocent appearance caused men to to look at her with lust. I have seen it and I know because I’m drawn to woman like that as well. I would sit back and casually look around and see the other guys around the pool leer in her direction and I knew the thoughts in their head.
The day was getting on and we had enough of the outdoors, she spoke up and expressed what I was thinking,

“You want to order pizza tonight”, she asked.

“Sure, lets do it”, I responded.

“OK, you ready to go back to the apartment”, she asked.

Yeah, let’s get you away from here before one of these guys rapes you in his mind again”, I said with a smile.

“OH STOP IT”, she said in a mocking fashion.

We were not near enough or even talking loud enough for any of them to hear it and although I was playing I was also conveying some truth.