A forced first time

Last night I had sex for the very first time. For months I kept telling my boyfriend that I wasn’t ready yet that I was just too scared,I was terrified that it would hurt, or that my mom would find out, or that worst of all I would get pregnant! He wore me down though, and promised that no one would find out and that it would all work out. We started making out on his couch ( He has his own apartment!) and he pulled my shirt off over my head, and then quickly undid my bra. My boobs felt the cold air hit them immediately and my nipples hardened. He pushed me back and took one of my hard nipples into his mouth, gently biting it and flicking his tongue against it. Holding me down with one of his hands he fumbled with the button on my jeans and unzipped me, giving him the first view of my underwear. He grabbed the waist of my jeans with both hands and quickly yanked them down, nearly dragging me off the couch. I started to really get nervous then, telling him that maybe we should wait that its too soon, but he ignored me and once again pushed me back so i was laying on my back, this time a little more roughly.